Did the finger bind with ankles crossed today in Supta K. I’m guessing that I am at a point in my practice where this is going to happen once or twice a week and then after awhile, more often until, hopefully, I’ll be binding regardless of whether I am tight or stiff or sweaty or not sweaty or whatever. That’s how it finally is with Mari C and Mari D. I can always do them – no matter how crappy I feel. It’s just part of my practice now, like Ardha Baddha and Janu Sirsa and Tirianga.
Sometimes I think about what I am doing in practice versus what other people are doing, and I feel so lame. Like, how can I even be tired after practicing 2/3 of Primary? How can I not be ready to go run five miles? I guess I am getting a bit antsy about getting through the rest of Primary. I just want to do it already. I want the whole Chikitsa. Not just 2/3 of the Chikitsa. Therapy you know? Would I leave 2/3 of the way into my 45 minute hour with my shrink? No. I would not. So, why do I have to leave 2/3 of the way into my 50 minute hour of Primary?
I am getting very impatient. VERY. I feel annoyed when I see new students come into the Shala, unable to bind in Mari D, unable to cross ankles in Supta K and unable to get arms through in Garba Pindasana and then, nevertheless, practice all the way up to Setu Bandasana.
Why not me? WHY WHY WHY?
Obviously, I just feel like whining like a two year old today.